Losing the Last 14 (One More Time)

Showing posts with label weigh in. Show all posts
Showing posts with label weigh in. Show all posts

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Weigh-in

Well, I am down to 131.8, which is, I believe my 2nd lowest weight since I started recording them a year ago.  Weird.  It's been like 3 weeks since I've done my strength training.  I haven't been running or doing any intense cardio, just walking and exercise bike.  I have been fairly consistent, haven't had much sweets, have been trying to watch my snacking.  I eat too many dry cheerios, but I guess they are low enough in calories that they don't have that much effect.

We got back from Disney on Sunday, after 8 days there.  I was sure I would gain 5 pounds, eating so much restaurant food (and desserts!)  I guess all the miles and miles of walking cancelled it out.  And I never ate a whole dessert--I always got a shared one.  I wish I had time to do that kind of walking on a daily basis.

I guess with my new goal, I'm only 2.8 pounds away!  That actually feels really good.  

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Sometimes the truth hurts...

I weighed in at 134.2 today.  Must do better next week. 

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Coping with Stress, Changing my Goal

I took a break from blogging for a while.  I got down to about 131 pounds then crept back up to 134 and am somewhere in between.  (We'll see what I weigh in at tomorrow.) Last Sunday, I weighed in at 134. 

I had a really difficult few weeks where I let stress get the better of me, and I was not eating well.  I got worked up about our homeschool year starting and kept staying up late, looking for ideas on the Internet, ordering books, etc.  I would stay up until 2 AM but still have to get up at 7 or 8, which isn't enough for me.  When I don't get enough sleep, I get really hungry, have less self-control, and start mindlessly snacking.

I kept thinking to myself, I canNOT let myself go just because I get stressed out.  And then I realized that that is just never going to happen.  I have to deal with the stress in a better way, so that it doesn't mess up my sleeping and eating.  I'm working on it.

I also realized that losing these 5 pounds has been such a struggle that I decided to set my goal weight at 129.  If I get up to 130, I will work on losing weight.  If, over the course of praticing portion control and exercising, I get below 129, I certainly will not try to gain back the weight, but I think 129 is a better goal for me that 125.  I don't care that much if the size 4 jeans never fit me again, and I'm tired of stressing myself out about it. 

Here is the plan I've made up for myself:

1)  Use healthy ways to deal with stress (making to-do lists, walking, running, yoga, gardening), so that I minimize sleep loss and mindless eating. 
2)  Get enough sleep.  Go to bed, not to computer, when sleepy.
3)  Practice portion control.  Stop eating when full.  Eat five times a day (3 meals, 2 snacks) and no more.
4)  Exercise every day.  Get cardio (even if it's just walking) 5 times a week for at least 30 minutes and strength training 2 times a week. 
5)  When I realize I've fallen off the eating-exercise wagon, get right back on. 

I think those are do-able rules that will keep me healthy and lean. 

Friday, August 3, 2012

Weekly Weigh-in

I did actually weigh in on Sunday, but I've just been too busy to post.  I was shocked to see the scale move down to 132.6.  I don't know if I'll get a number that good on Sunday.  My eating has not been wonderful this week, although not terrible.  I did have an anniversary dinner where I drank two glasses of wine.  I've also had a few treats.  My exercise has been consistent but not outstanding.  So,  we'll see.

Getting so close to the 120's again is honestly making me a little nervous.  I'm afraid of screwing up so close to my goal.  The silly thing is that I'm pretty much back where I started in October, when I originally wanted to lose about 7 pounds.  And then I gained 7, the first time I've ever gained while weighing regularly.  So painful. 

But I figure it was BECAUSE I weighed regularly that I stopped gaining and then started losing.  In the past, I've gone into much deeper denial regarding my weight, and then I end up in a real mess. 

I need to be a little more positive with myself about finishing this.  Maybe I also just need to focus on getting to 129 and then do some re-evaluating.  Maybe I'll want to stay there.  Maybe I'll want to go a step farther.  Either way, it's fine. 

Friday, July 27, 2012

Weight Loss and Bra Size

Well, weight loss has not been foremost on my mind this week, although I did get some good exercise in and have been doing pretty well on my eating.  But I've been thinking about other things.  Thus, I forgot to weigh myself first thing in the morning on Sunday and then on Monday.  So, I took Tuesday's weight, which turned out to be pretty good at 134.0. 

I'm about 5 pounds down from where I got up to, and, ironically, pretty much where I was when I started charting my weight.  I'm very happy to be back here, and truth be told, I think I could be happy at this weight.  My clothes all fit, except for 2 pairs of pants.  I do think that a few more pounds would be good, so I'll keep trying. 

I am now running into the problem that my bras no longer fit.  I have gone down a band size.  I have 4 wire-free Warner's bras, size 34B, and they fit nicely until now.  They are now too big.  I am now a 32 B, or possibly even 32C, which means I'm a lot more limited in what brands make my size.  I also need padding or my nipples show through. 

I hate bras, and it makes me mad that I now have to find a new brand.  What I decided to do in the meantime is to order a couple of less structured bras and some silicone nipple covers and see if that solves my problem.  Then, when I'm at my goal, I might think about figuring out exactly what size I am.  Or if I like the less structured ones, I may just stick with that. 

I've read that a woman's bra size can change constantly.  Even 5 pounds can change the breast or cup size.  It's just terribly annoying because bras are expensive, and a badly fitting bra is extremely uncomfortable. 

I am happy about my continued weight loss.  But it is making me nervous because I do like this size, and I do want to maintain it, and I'm afraid I'll go back to my old habits of eating out of boredom.  I think I just need to take it one day at a time, worry about the present and not the future.  If only it were easier to take my own advice. 

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Weekly Weigh-In

I did not have high expectations for this week.  I didn't exercise much towards the beginning of the week, due to getting over my cold.  I didn't do my strength training until Saturday, which tends to make me retain a little water.  My period is expected soon.  I ate too much popcorn at the movie theater yesterday.  (My husband and I took our kids to see brave, the first time we had gone to the movies as a family.  We had popcorn because we so rarely go to the movies, and it was a special treat.)  Otherwise, I've been doing okay, but felt especialy bad about the popcorn.  I know--I need to forgive myself about the popcorn and move on.  

Well, the scale, to my surprise, pronounced me 134.2 this morning, down almost half a pound from last week.  So, this week I'm going to work very hard and try and get on the other side of 134 for next week (I have seen the lovely 133's on the scale some mornings). Getting so close to the 120's again! 

One thing I learned from Thin for Life is that successful maintainers set reasonable goals.  Setting a goal of 10 pounds in a month for July was not a reasonable goal for a busy mother of 2 children who doesn't have very much weight to lose.  Sure, if I went to a weight loss camp and burned a ton of calories every day, I could do it, but it would be very difficult and time consuming for me to do that in conjunction with my responsibilities at home. Five pounds might have been a reasonable goal, but 3-4 is probably what I'm going to get. 

I'm not discouraged or sad that I'm not going to lose 10 pounds this month, and the idea of it did motivate me at the beginning of the month.  As much as I want to be at my goal, I have to remind myself that even when I'm "done" losing weight, I'm not going to be "done" ever.  I will have to watch my eating and exercise habits for the rest of my life.  And that's okay--most fit people do, and I can too. 

One great thing that has happened is that my jean shorts fit again.  Actually, they are too loose.  I have lost five pounds, apparently mostly off my waist, and I must have built up muscle over the months too.  In late spring, my shorts were unwearable because they were so tight.  Now I have inches to spare and really should retire them.  It's kind of confusing actually.  These are not shorts from when I was at my thinnest--they are from when I had put on some weight--I picked them up at a yard sale.  My other shorts are still a little snug, but I can wear them.  Hopefully, by the end of the summer, they will be really comfortable again. 

I got some new videos, one Biggest Loser, one Bob Harper, and one Jillian.  (Yes, I'm a fan of the show.)  I hope to review them in the coming weeks.  I'm only now feeling over my cold enough to do them.

Originally, had decided to tie my weight loss to my clothing budget and only buy clothes for myself when I had lost weight or maintained my goal weight.  I decided this was a bad idea for me.  I need to look nice no matter what my weight, so I have bought clothes that should continue to fit me at my goal weight.   When I reach my goal, however, I will get myself a refurbished iTouch.  I really want one! 

Overall, I'm pleased with my results today and planning on working very hard next week.

Monday, July 9, 2012

Weekly Weigh-in

I weighed in yesterday at 134.6.  Hurray!  134.6!  That's the lowest point since February, when I was painfully charting my weight creeping up.  That's the good news.  The bad news is that I've been fighting a cold for the past few days, so haven't been able to exercise.  Many people can exercise through a cold, but I've found that it just makes me feel terrible, possibly because of my slight asthma.  Also, it's been about 100 degrees here every day, which is even more miserable when you have a cold.  I might have gone for a slow walk, but I think the 100 degrees on top of the

So, I watched about a million episodes of the Biggest Loser on Netflix this weekend.  Yesterday, that's basically all that I did.  It was great.  I would have rather been moving around, but a TV binge when you're sick is kind of nice.  It's nice that my kids are old enough where I can actually do that.  Especially since my husband was home and willing to take them away for a while.  I also find the Biggest Loser to be extremely motivating.  Right now I wish I could go to "Fitness Ridge" for 2-4 weeks and get rid of my extra pounds.  But, alas, I am not rich. 

I've also been reading a book called Thin For Life, which has also been motivational to me.  I'll try and post a review of it here when I'm finished. 

I'm very, very happy about breaking 135.  My next goal is to get into the 133's.  One step at a time.

Sunday, July 1, 2012

Weekly Weigh-In

Weighed in at 136.8 today.  UGH.

The only thing left to do is what I should have been doing all along: count calories.  I'm going to try to stay below 1500 calories each day.  I also decided, rather arbitrarily, to stay below 60 carbs a day. 

I used to use Fitday to track my calories, but I couldn't log in to their site today, and they didn't instantly send me a link to reset my password, so I decided to try a site I haven't used before, SparkPeople

All I can say is that it SUCKS to lose weight when you don't have a lot to lose.  But it's still better than having a lot to lose.

I've been afraid to track my calories because I know I eat too much.  But why should I be afraid, when this will stop me from eating too much?  When I lost a lot of weight 2 years ago (went from about 160 to 120), I only tracked my calories at first.  After that, I got use to a lower caloric intake and was able to tell when I had eaten enough by how full I felt.  I hope that happens again.  I will need to continue to weigh myself after I reach my goal to see if I need to count calories again.

It is also possible that I will need to count calories for the rest of my life, if I want to maintain at my goal weight.  With today's technology, that shouldn't be a problem, although a smartphone sure would help.  Oh, well.

Monday, June 25, 2012

Weekly Weigh-In

So, yesterday I weighed in at 136.6.  And my period was over.  So, there we go, I guess it's time to change my ticker from 135.2 to 136.6. 

I decided that I needed to take my eating and exercise a lot more seriously.  I'm not sure there is any way to lose weight without being at least a tiny bit hungry.  Otherwise, how would I have a calorie deficit?  So, I started doing that today.  I'm not counting calories formally, but I am paying close attention to what I eat and not getting as full.  And I'm kicking the exercise into high gear, as in 1-2 hours a day, 5-7 days a week, until I reach my goal. 

My goal is to get down to 125 by August 1st and then maintain.  Based on past experience, I believe that I can do this. 

Sometimes I do wonder why I care so much.  Everywhere I look, I see people who are much larger than me.  I wear a freaking size small in most clothes, occasionally an extra small, and more occasionally a medium.  I am a size I would never have believed I could have gotten down to at certain points in my life.  Still, I'm a little thick and a little wide, and I really wish my tummy would shrink. 

I know someone in real life who has started a blog.  She is 2 inches taller than me, and her goal weight is not far from my highest weight.  It just kind of puts things in perspective. 

I have another friend who has a completely flat stomach with well-defined ab muscles.  I know I will never get there.  I have neither the motivation, nor, I think, the genetics to get my body fat down that low. 

But what I really need to do is to stop comparing myself to other people. 

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Sunday Weigh-In

Today, with my period starting, I weighed 135.8.  That's okay.  It's not great, but I'm not upset about it.  I don't appear to be either gaining or losing weight right now.  Just fairly stable.  Stable is okay.  Gaining is bad. 

This is really a new experience for me, starting at a relatively low weight and working down to a lower one.  The two times in my life I've lost weight I was a lot fatter to begin with. 

I broke my vow, which was to keep my clothes budget tied to my weight and not to buy clothes until I've reached my geal.  I bought clothes, some pretty summer clothes at summer sales online that I hope to enjoy wearing.  I bought dresses and skirts.  I hope they'll help me to feel good about myself.  I want to enjoy the body I have, even if it is 10 pounsd more than the one I want. 

I've also found that the BEST way to lose weight is to buy some clothes you really love.  It never fails.  At that point, I will lose weight and then my beautiful clothes will look baggy.  Oh, well. 

The good news is that my kids' end-of-year programs are over, and things should settle down a little, and I should be able to get into a better routine.  I'm hoping to take some classes at the Y.  I just need to put them on my calendar and GO.  I'm interested in Zumba, line dancing, yoga, pilates, and spinning (although the spinning classes tend to fill up).  

I did have a fun 30 minutes of roller blading one day, while my son biked. I would have loved to have kept going, but he was done.  After I took a fall, I realized that I need knee pads before I try it again!  My scrapes have healed fine, but I'm over 30, and hurting my knee is a lot bigger of a deal than it was when I was, say, 12. 

The Couch to 5K is not going well at all. Ugh.  I could do it if I weren't so overloaded, but I think for now, I need something a little more exciting and different from what I'm used to. 

Once again, I would love to see the OTHER side of 135 next week. 

Sunday, June 10, 2012

Weekly Weigh In

I weighed in this morning at 135.6.  I was less than thrilled.  Well, I'll just hope to be on the other side of 135 next week.  I need to do better on exercise.  Next week is going to be hectic, and then it should start to slow down (I hope?). 

I've gotten back to staying up late and getting up late, and I really do believe that my 45-minute-to-an-hour walk each morning is a key to success. 

If I keep losing weight at this rate, I will be finished in something like 5-10 months.  Which would be okay if I had 50 pounds to lose, but I think it's a little extreme for 10 pounds.  I think I need to step things up, especially with the exercise! 

Sunday, June 3, 2012

Sunday Weigh-In

Well, I weighed in today 135.2, which is good, although I would have loved for it to be just a tad on the other side of 135, but, still, that's less than last week, albeit slightly, so I will definitely take it. 

I didn't have the best week, exercise-wise.  I didn't do any more C25K, because of weather and a bit of upset stomach.  I also didn't do enough walking because I had a lot to do and didn't get up in time.  I really had to force myself do my strength training on Friday.  I'm glad I have the exercise bike because that is kind of my last resort, and I used it a couple of times this week.  I like the bike, I just don't think I get as good of a workout on it as I do by running or even walking. 

I definitely do notice a difference in my body, and I think it's just from picking up my strength training again these past few months.  My husband was scratching my back (and unexpectedly had to remove a tick) and said I was skinny.  That is not really true, but definitely some of that fat has converted to muscle. 

I need to pick up some neoprene 15-pound dumbells.  (I do most of my exercises at 12, and those are really too easy again.)  

Well, this week is a new week.  I've got 10 pounds to go, and I'd love for them to be gone in 10 weeks. 

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Weekly Update: Good News

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I weighed in this morning.  I actually was dreading weighing myself and lay in bed for longer than I should have.  When I stepped on the scale, I was so relieved to see 135.4.  It's been a few months since I've seen anything that low.  I'm hoping that in June, I will at least get back to the numbers that  started recording my weight at last year!  My lowest recorded weight was 132.2 back in November. 

I'm also very pleased that I do seem to be able to lose weight without going drastically low carb or doing a drastic increase in exercise.  I've been mostly walking the dog for exercise and practicing portion control.  While I'm not doing low carb, I have been very careful about sugary deserts.  We've had cookies a couple of times, and I've been able to eat them in moderation.  If I get a fancy coffee drink, I can ask for the low sugar syrup, and I think this is very helpful.  I still get my treat without the effects to my blood sugar. 

Activity, calorie intake, and carb intake are all equally important, in my opinion, to my weight loss.  

I am going to start Couch to 5K today, probably in a few minutes.  The Couch to 5K program will probably keep my busy all summer.  I'm going to try using a podcast, rather than a digital watch, to keep me on track.  This partly because I think it will be a fun change, and it is also because I have lost my digital watch. I'll also be wearing Spiderman sunglasses, because all the pairs I bought for myself at the Dollar Tree are lost, and I pathetically have to borrow my son's pair. 

Hopefully, I will see the 134's next week! 

Saturday, May 26, 2012

A Setback

I didn't update with my weight last week, and I haven't really weighed all week.  Last Sunday, I weighed in at 137.2.  I was kind of bummed out about it.  I was probably retaining some water.  I had lifted weights, and my period was starting, so it could have been just water.  I haven't exercised well this week, and my eating has been fair, with some snacking problems.  I am feeling very full after my meals, which is good.

I always have problems right before and during my period.  I get extremely sleepy for about a week.
If I don't get extra sleep at night, I will have to lie down one evening and take a nap, where I sleep very heavily.  I don't have bad cramps or migraines, certainly nothing a little naproxen or ibuprofen couldn't handle.

I need something new for next week.  I was thinking about doing a Jillian Michaels video every day, but I think I'll start up with Couch to 5K.  I stopped running over the winter, due to constant colds and the worst sinus infection of my life.  I think I ought to save videos for the winter evenings when it gets dark depressingly early (around 4:30 here), and enjoy the outdoors while I can, even though it will be painfully hot.  Since I need to walk the (damn) dog every morning, and I don't want to try and run with him in the heat, I'll have to go when my husband gets home from work.

Oh, well, it will be okay.  I'm nervous to see what I weigh tomorrow, but whatever it is, I'll deal with it.  At least my pants and shorts fit again, even if they are a tad snug.  Maybe in a month they'll be comfortably loose. 

Sunday, May 13, 2012

Sunday Weigh In and Weekly update

I record my weight every Sunday.  I record after I first wake up.  I use the bathroom and remove my clothes, and then what I get is what I write.  Although I do weigh myself on other days, I don't record those weights.  If I can't weigh in on Sunday, I record my Saturday weight, or the next day after Sunday that I'm near my scale.  At the end of the month, I average my weights.

Today, I weighed in at 136 pounds.  I am very happy with this, as I haven't gotten a weight this low since February!  It means I have only 11 pounds to go before I reach my goal. 

The sad thing is that since I started tracking my weight back at the end of October, I was weighing in in the 132's and 133's.  At that time, I was a little discouraged that I needed to lose 7-8 pounds.  I'm trying not to beat myself up about it.  If I hadn't started recording my weight, I'd probably weigh even more now.

Anyway, this round is for life, not for looking good in a bathing suit this summer (although that would be a nice benefit.)  I also have to remind myself that for much of my adult life, I would have been THRILLED to be down to this weight.  In fact, 135 was my original weightloss goal back in 2003. 

I am trying to find a balance between feeling good about how far I've come yet motivated to continue.